I feel bad.

To put it simply, yeah, that's exactly how I feel.

On-the-verge-of-tears bad. It's this terrible feeling you get once you figure out something awful. Like the opposite of an epiphany. Or, rather, you know how an epiphany is like a sudden moment of clarity? Of realization? Right now, what I'm feeling, it's me realizing something horrible. And I'm telling you, it's not in anyway an overreaction. I am not being emo or whatever. That part of me is over. That part of life spent believing I was something I'm not, that part, I've gone passed that. Now it's something different. That was a lie. This is the truth.

Oh I feel so awful.