Disappointment

If I don't get this, I will be very sad. Sadder than I've ever been. :(

TURTLES FOREVER

Cowabunga says it all.

This is what dreams are made of. I feel like a kid again. AWESOME. Bodacious. Radical. Waaaahhhhh!!!!!

Goodbye

I don't want to say it. If I do, bad things will happen. Dramatic, tension-filled, generally not nice things will happen. That's what always happens. That's what I do. I get it wrong and I get my heart broken.

Please, do not think that this time will be different. It won't. IT WON'T. Listen. For once in your life, listen. DON'T. It's time to try something new. This is when you stop punching the wall. This is when you realize, your fist, your arm, you broke it. You didn't stop. You broke it trying to punch through a wall. Realize that.

Concoct whatever fantasies you want. Go ahead. Dream'em up. You finished? Good. THEY WON'T WORK. They never have and they never will.

What's the matter with you? Haven't you been paying attention at all? The past how many instances, have they worked? They haven't. THEY HAVEN'T. Don't fool yourself again. Stop it. Stop acting like an idiot. Open your eyes. This ain't the way to go about it. This isn't a movie. This isn't a comicbook. This is your life. And everytime you try to pull one of these, you fail. YOU FAIL. That's what happens. Stop failing your life.

Do not believe in yourself. YOU'VE BEEN WRONG EVERYTIME. Stop it. End it. Start again.

Be new! Be spectacular! Be amazing! Because you clearly haven't been anything but. Work a different angle. Try something else. Just stop falling for the same traps every single time. If you have to be a totally different person to do this...then change. Do it. Discard this old skin; it hasn't been working for you.

In other words, give up. Give up on this. Give up on you. The time has come to move on. Grow up. Mature. Join the rest of the world. You've already been left behind so you have to start catching up now.

Okay? Okay. Now go kill yourself and be done with it. Then start over. It's time to say goodbye.

Upcoming Movies I Would Like To See

Carriers. - Chris Pine in a pseudo 28 Days Later Flick? I'm there.
9 - Saw the trailer of this a couple months back. Looked cool then, looks cool now.
More Than A Game - A documentary about a high school basketball team? Who would want to watch...Oh wait. It's about LeBron James' high school basketball team. Okay.
The Invention of Lying - HOLY CRAP. This looks awesome! Gervais! Fey! Garner! Hill! And it's a brilliant concept!
Daybreakers - Wrote about this before. I'm really looking forward to this. Hell yeah.
Sherlock Holmes - RDJ? Jude Law? Rachel McAdams? Oh yeah. Haha.
New York, I Love You - Boy that's a big cast. I think I need to check this out.
Legion - WHOA. Okay. Definitely watching you too.

Psych = Awesome Part 2

"I refuse to feel uncomfortable around you. It's silly, you mean too much to me, and, and I'm perfectly capable of keeping this platonic as long as you are."

That's Shawn to Jules whilst the two of them are on what was supposed to be Shawn's date with his girlfriend Abigail after Jules finally asked him out at the end of last season.

Why can't I be like Shawn Spencer?!

Note to self: Time to be more perceptive and observant. Also? Time to continue referencing old movies and cartoons that no one else cares about. And I'll form the head!

Thank you.

Psych = Awesome

Jules: I am uh, clearly not as good with words as you are, and um, I know that things between us have been a little complicated and that there have probably been some mixed signals mostly from me, with regards to the time that we spend together outside of the line of duty --

Shawn: Look, Jules --

Jules: Shh, just please let me finish stumbling through this I'm almost done I promise...What I'm saying, is that I think, maybe the best things, the richest things, aren't supposed to come easily and that sometimes, the moments that make the most sense happen when everything else doesn't, and well, I think you deserve more than popcorn tonight, so why don't you let me take you to dinner?

Shawn: Detective O'Hara are you asking me out on a date?

Jules: I am. A proper one.




That's how you do it. After this, there's some stuff that's kinda...off. Like, it doesn't meet the vibe I want to give off. Basically, earlier in the episode, Shawn already asked someone else out. So yeah. But it's still awesome because it leads to this:

Jules: Get out there, she's not gonna wait forever.

Shawn: Jules...I am so sorry...for snapping at you earlier.

Jules: I know.

If you happen to catch the last few minutes of the season 3 finale of Psych, stick to it. Don't change the channel. It's gut-wrenching and beautiful and sad and just...wow. I knew there was a reason I loved this show.

Oh shit.

Yeah. I think I do.

Damn it.

REGGIE!

Good times.

My favorite parts?

1. Larry Bird's reaction: none. The Legend has seen too many of these and made just as much. Nothing to it.

2. Rik Smits was still alive back then.

3. DERRICK McKEY!!!!

4. One of my favorite backcourts ever, Mark Jackson and Reggie Miller.

5. Yeah, he pushed MJ and got away with it.

6. REGGIE DOES IT AGAIN.

I love this game. I love the Pacers. I love Reggie Miller.

Love Actually

I do not have a post about Love, Actually? Really? Wow.

The scene that turned Love, Actually into one of my favorite movies: "But for now let me say, without hope or agenda, just because it's Christmas - and at Christmas, you tell the truth - to me you are perfect, and my wasted heart will love you."

Even Shakespeare Thinks I'm Doomed

"There's a divinity that shapes our ends, rough hew them how we will."

-Hamlet to Horatio, Act 5, Scene 2.

Yesterday, my brother was reading Hamlet while we were waiting at the dentist. So when it was his turn already, I took the book and browsed through it. Then I saw the quote. At the time, I didn't realize what the line could've meant in the context of my life.

Oohhh boy. It hit me this morning.

I am doomed. Plain and simple. Last night's debacle of a "conversation" and ultimatum (shit, I'm regretting it now but damn it I couldn't take it anymore -- and everyone and their mother knew I was due for a dramatic blow-up soon) just proved that no matter what I do...it all ends the same.

*stares blankly into the monitor*

Yup.

Supernatural Season 5

Looks absolutely bad ass. I cannot wait for this.

"It's war. Listen to me, it's war!"

Gonna need a moment. Gonna need my moment. In the sun, shining brighter than ever before. Why? Because I'm losing. I'm losing my mind. I'm losing me. I'm losing. I'm failing. Again.

There's something wrong. I'm beginning to think it's me again. Like, me, specifically. That I am just not...right.

Pathetic much? Sure. But when it repeatedly happens. When the characters change but the plot remains the same...it ain't anybody's fault but the writer's. And the writer of this movie, my movie? Me.

Yeah, it was one of those days.

* * *

I am not awesome. I am not amazing. I am not the guy. I never was.

Deflect

But enough of that. I can't think about it first. It's going to drive me insane if I do.

I got new books today! Ultimate Comics Avengers #1, Ultimate Comics Spider-Man #1, Blackest Night #2, Uncanny X-Men #514 and Incredible Hercules #132. All of them were awesome. Not saying this because I'm a Marvel guy, but Blackest Night was the weakest of the bunch.

I really want to be a writer. A comicbook writer. Because that'd be brilliant. I love comics and I think I can write fairly well.

Haha. Nice. An actual dream.

Change

Something's different. Something's changed. Definitely.

You can't tell me otherwise. There's something wrong. And I don't get it.

There are only two ways this ends. Both are complicated.

The first way this ends, I ain't gonna like it one bit. The second one won't be fun either. Are those the only two ways this ends? Seems like doesn't it?

Oh wait, there's option three. Ain't gonna like that either I reckon'.

I'd really like to know what the hell is going on. I am so like, lost. Confused. Dazed and confused. Because I don't get it. This is not how things are supposed to be. I need the truth. I need normalcy again. I NEED YOU BACK. The real you. Not this, not this sham you're putting up. Please. If you're reading this, talk to me.

For Theo

My terrible picture for the Theo paper. Haha.

DSoD

Oh hell, here we go again.

DON'T

You cannot do this. Do you understand? You cannot do this. This course of action you want to take? No. You can't follow your heart because this is not in your heart. This is in your head. Far from your heart. This is not what you're supposed to do.

Okay?

Yes, Again

Inspired by the awesomeness of my last post, I decided to look for my second favorite Lost moment next. (Desmond and Penny's phone conversation being the first.)

This is one of the first scenes of part 2 of the season 3 finale, Through The Looking Glass. Credit must go to YouTube user ExtraitsMania01 for taking down the lines in this, my favorite Jack and Kate scene:

Jack: You okay?
Kate: Yeah, I just got a rock in my shoe.
Jack: He didn't mean it, you know.
Kate: What?
Jack: Sawyer. When he said he didn't want you to go with him, he didn't mean it.
Kate: If he didn't mean it, why did he say it?
Jack: He was trying to protect you. That's why I asked you not to come back for me.
Kate: Hey. Why are you sticking up for Sawyer? He'd never do it for you.
Jack: Because I love you.

Just....awesome. :)

For Blue Skies

I'm watching the Brooke and Lucas scene from "How a Resurrection Really Feels," (Season 3, episode 9 -- Yeah, I know the title of this particular episode) and it's the most awesome thing ever.

I think I already blogged about this a few months ago and...I just love this scene.

The song. The moment. The words...Sophia Bush was the star of the scene though. Sorry Chad. Brooke crying and the letters and all of it just made me weep.

Awesome, awesome, awesome. :)

The Hero of this Story

Supposedly, that would be me.

So why aren't I acting like one?

Don't you understand? You don't take shortcuts. You don't win. You don't get happy endings.

It's supposed to hurt.

Face it, you're the bad guy.

G.I. Joe

Kinda loved the movie. Haha.

(There will be spoilers!)

First off, I'd like to thank Amanda Tiaoqui for getting me and my brother our tickets. Couldn't have done it without you best friend :D

Again, I loved the movie. I read one review where they said that the movie was the live-action version of the cartoon. Yes. Correct. The beginning, the attack on the convoy escorting the "nanomites" could've easily been something they took from the cartoons. The fight scenes were so bad ass too. Snake-Eyes vs Storm Shadow, past and present, AWESOME. Scarlet and Baroness, I can watch the two of you fight all day. Eventually, they'd have to lose all of their clothes right? Duke was such a boy scout too, haha. Wish I saw more Joes, even just shout-outs to the others like Wild Bill, Bazooka, Ace, hell, they could've added Snow Job or Iceberg or any of the underwater Joes (Deep Six, Wetsuit) for the fight in the arctic and Dusty or Cross-Country in the Pit fight.

The vehicles were amazing! I wish they had included some Trouble Bubbles but seeing an actual Night Raven was cool. Loved the Cobra M.A.R.S. warship during the convoy fight.

People actually died in this movie. (Cover Girl?!) The Neo-Vipers (was that what they were called?) reminded me of the B.A.T.S. from the series.

Loved Zartan and Destro. Loved seeing Dr. Mindbender. I wish we had gotten a classic Cobra Commander laugh at the end ("You can call me, COMMANDER! Muwahahahahaha!" That's not so hard is it?) but I liked how creepy he was.

And dude, was that Brendan Fraser as FLINT?? LOL.

Anyway, the acting was kinda bad (Mr. Eko was awesome and if you weren't awesomed by him, shame on you) but hot damn all I wanted to see was the fights and the lasers and the over-the-top villains and world domination schemes (this was actually pretty crafty, better than the MASS device and the weather dominator).

Loved the cast, the whole cast. Love'em all. Ray Park is a god. Rachel Nichols and Sienna Miller are too hot and Channing Tatum was serviceable. I agree the Marlon Wayans and Nichols did not have good chemistry but Wayans seems like a nice guy and I love the he was part of a summer blockbuster. Christopher Eccleston was so over-the-top, it was awesome. Breaker was cool too. General Hawk! My man. I just loved this movie.

The final word? Star Trek then G.I. Joe then Transformers 2. Good job to Paramount haha.

Can't wait for the sequel.

A Walk To Remember Notes

Amanda, ikaw lang makakagets nito haha

-Eddie Zimmerhoff. Or however the hell you spell it. Just him. :))

-I love Mandy Moore. Like, LOVE. But she has some creepy facial expressions in this movie.

-Shane West = Not Broad Shoulders :))

-BUT! Amanda = Jamie and Landon = BROAD SHOULDERS wahahahahaha

-Shane West has a giant forehead

-The part where Landon hitches with Jamie is like MAKATI CARPOOL! LOL!

-The scenes with Jamie's father and Landon at the beginning are super benta :))

-Only Hope :)

-The kiss wasn't part of the play? Really? Either way, the reaction of Jamie's dad and Landon's ex were priceless haha!

-The scene in the cafeteria gets me everytime

-Landon's frenemy, the guy he punches = _____ WAHAHAHAHAHAHA!

-Would you really follow someone into a cemetery at night?

-Why did your audio suddenly get ahead of mine? We were sabay from the beginning until they went out on their first date. :(

-Teacher Fail at talking to Landon after the play :))

-A Walk To Remember is such a great movie. :D

4A06 Sleepover 2009

-LS Bookstore. Enzo and I meet up. He buys stuff. I don't.

-I have to print a paper. *straight face* (this keyboard in Webtown does not have the straight line used to make straight face. FAIL WEBTOWN FAIL.

-This post is sponsored by Webtown! (Well, since I did this over a span of a few days, only the first part was done in Webtown haha)

-We leave Ateneo. It's traffic. Kuwentuhan with Enzo. :D

-L4D with Enzo. Our names during the game would be harmless if they didn't refer to certain aspects of my life. Hahaha.

-(Enzo + Jeri)Advanced = NO DEATHS IN BOTH MAPS WE PLAYED. TAKE THAT YOU HORRID TANK.

-Enzo is a lady-killer. He killed the witch with one shot. Thrice (Meaning he killed three witches). Awesome Enzo.

-Who arrived first? Was it Convo or Losman? I think it was Losman.

-Then Convo. We started a game but Losman had to leave after the second level.

-We're even more awesome now. Haha. WE KILL ZOMBIES.

-Balma arrives again for the last level in the Farm. I survived. Hahahaha.

-It's fun hearing guys scream like little girls whenever the Tank comes. Or how we get all scared and quiet when we know there's a witch. Oh and running away from the witch is the best. :))

-We play Starcraft. Balma kills me in 7 minutes this time. I lasted 2 minutes longer!

-Ryan and Losman come back. We play versus on L4D. Let it be known that Balma, Enzo and Convo could not take me down. They only got me because I had to help my fallen teammates. Damn it.

-Also? Versus should only be played on Normal. Masyadong lugi ang survivors eh.

-Oh and I love being a Boomer. :))

-(Balma + Convo + Enzo)Tank = FAIL. :))

-Molotovs are good against Tanks. WHEN YOU ACTUALLY GET TO BURN THE BASTARD. (And did you notice how if you throw it right at him, it bounces off?)

-WHO SAID THE TANK WAS A GUY? What if it was a chick pala??

-Losman was lost to us. I had to kill Francis so that Ryan and I could escape on the chopper. Haha.

-That was the end of L4D. Off to Enzo's!

-I ride with Zo. Balma and Convo are solo in their own cars. Ryan's got Losman.

-Jeri: Enzo, you ever have that nightmare where you're outside your house, in your car, waiting for the gate to open and nothing happens and you're stuck outside?
(Enzo makes kuwento for a good 5, 6 minutes and the gate hasn't swung open yet)
Enzo: FAVIS!

LOL

-Enzo, Balma, Convo and I arrive first. The food's ready. Time to eat.

-SISIG. Balma nearly finishes it.

-The paella was really good!

-So were the potatoes. And I was the only one who ate them so yay.

-We talked about some things. They made us laugh. I cannot remember them. :(

-Ang tagal nina Ryan.

-Tan texted???

-Ryan and Losmama finally arrive. They bought a lot of drinks and stuff and...CELLO'S!!!!

-TREEHOUSE.

-L4D: Melee = Rape?? 0.o

-Lumabas kami nang bahay ni Enzo. May ginawa yung iba sa ilalim ng payong sa gitna ng mga kotse. Wala namang nakaluhod. :))

-We go upstairs. It took me a while to finally take a bath. Haha.

-Ryan mixes us drinks. I don't like alcohol. Haha. Pero masarap nga yung gawa ni Rye!

-We all play cards. Losman and Enzo play Magic. The rest of us play Pusoy Dos.

-Patron, Tequila! :))

-The overall loser has to do something to the overall winner. Lechupacabra. It's there.

-Because of Lechupacabra, I remember Convo :))

-You know Aayy-ay-ay-ay! Birthday Sex!

-Enzo's cards are quite...titillating. :)) ESPECIALLY THE 6 of HEARTS

-POKER TIME.

-Pocket 3's ;)

-MAVERICK fail si Convo. Haha. And, Pair Kings > Pair Queens :))

-Order of elimination: Ryan, Losman, Convo, Balma, Enzo. What's that you say? Where's Jeri?

-JERI WON! They all owe me P20!

-Coz we're chillin' at the HOLIDAY INN :))

-Ryan, kuwento naman dyan haha

-Ang benta talaga ng tawa ni Losman :))

-PIRATES. That is all. :))

-Hindi natin pinanood yung 12 in 1. Or 12 on 1. Whatever. I think that was a good thing. It sounded downright scary.

-Enzo, remember the scene Balma showed me? THAT LOOKED LIKE IT HURT. :|

-Ang sarap nung Cello's haha

-Oh, hi Lex. Haha. Wala lang. You too Raf.

-Enzo, sorry for dribbling the ball in your room haha

-Ryan, your hair. It's so...captivating. :))

-LEGEND NI PAOLO CONGCO

-LASERTAG SANA THE NEXT DAY.

-My bed partner Balma hahahahaha (Ryan, post the picture of me and Balma on the floor hahaha)

-I fell asleep at like 2 or 3.

-It was 1am when Ryan said, "Left 4 Dead tayo uli!" ADIK.

-Enzo and I wake up at roughly the same time at 10am. Balma isn't there. "He must've gone home." Convo wakes up and enters the bathroom. Balma DID NOT go home :))

-Balma, sorry na, THE CAGE.

-L4D AGAIN! We died in the last level but we won on the next try and Enzo, Ryan, Losman and I all survived. SMALL TOWN HAS BEEN CONQUERED.

-SEAFOOD RICE FOR TAKE-OUT!

-Rye! POST THE L4D PICTURE with BOOMER-JERI, CONVO-ZOEY/HUNTER, ENZO-TANK(?? I actually can't remember what you were posing as haha) and CONX-SMOKER. :))

-Si Losman, nagpaiwan sa Webtown haha

-First time in Celeb. Awesome. Haha.

-Basketball! A-Boys! Nice! Teams: Balma, Tan, Convo and Conx VS Arjay, Enzo, Balma and Rye/Losman

-Convo: Hindi ka na si Larry Bird. Kahit Bonner hindi eh :))

-Conx = Clutch

-Balma = Steve Nash?

-Arjay = Shooter, sorry na. :D (Proud ako haha)

-Losman = Fresh legs/bail out-er. Hahahahahaha!

-Ryan = 3-point shooter hahaha

-Tan last shot :))

-My team lost both games :( Pero dapat foul yung huli! Ask Balma!

-Koreans take the court away from us :(

-Ate downstairs. Pwede naman Zo eh! Haha.

-Hi Gela. Did you see what Convo's going to look like in the future? :))

-I thought I ate through the packaging :| Buti na lang natunaw lang pala :))

-SEAFOOD RICE = SARAP

-I am the finisher of food :))

-Happy Birthday to Arjay's mom!

-It was great seeing Arjay again. Last time I saw him was what? X-Men Origins Wolverine pa. Haha. Good to see you BCB. (Hi Chlods haha)

-Ryan forgot to pay his bill :))

-Goodbyes. Goodbyes are bitter for we separate. But sweet because we long for the next time we see each other. :)

-I know, that was pretty gay :))

-Enzo. Zo. Onzo Onzo-Bronoo! (Sing it like Papa-Paparazzi hahahahahaha OO NA. BUMENTA SA AKIN EH.) Come back soon pare. Dapat sabay kayo ni Lex at Rye uli. At ni Raf at ni Kimbo. Para maka-epic L4D tayo. Na campaign at versus. At BASKET. AT SLEEPOVER. AT LASERTAG. Basta. A-Boys! When we get the chance, we should have a more epic version of my birthday last year. I'm talking about Webtown + Basket + Kain + Lasertag! WE SHOULD.

-Balma, thanks for the ride bro. And the umbrella. But the rain was so strong that I still got drenched. First time all year I forgot my jacket and I needed it pala. Darn.

And that's that. Whew. So long. So many things I probably forgot to put in. But hot damn. Such an awesome two days. It was impromptu but it worked out so well.

Ryan, Convo, Enzo, Losman, Balma, Conx, Mark, Arjay. I had a great time. Thank you.

Sometimes, for those who would see wonderful things, they must often be ready to travel alone. But there are those instances, when it's precisely because we are not alone, do we experience such wondrous things. :)

You all know how I feel about 4A06. Forever Fornever. TTFK. :D

(This whole post is an MP. Haha.)

Thanks a lot.

Don't you miss me at all?

Why aren't you calling me, texting me, whatever?

Other people, you can make time for, FOR ME, you can't? I don't always have to be the first one to call. And don't give me that crap that, eh sorry, that's who I am eh. THERE'S A DIFFERENCE WHEN IT'S ME AND YOU.

So if you don't care anymore, then we're done.