Oy

One year on the new blog. Cool.

The Evil That I Do

It's easy. Too easy. Yes, there is trepidation and hesitation. Sometimes even, I wuss out. More often though, I don't. I generate a reason. I call it character development even. When I feel even more bad about what I'm about to do, I call it 'creating drama.' That's how I do it. That's how I do something wrong. That's how I become the villain of the story.

It's scary. It's very scary. I'm supposed to be the hero of my own story. Brave and courageous. Noble and generous. Kind and caring. I'm the guy. That guy. THE guy. I'm supposed to be Spider-Man. Or Nova. Or Green Lantern. It's why I read superhero comics. They inspire me. It's what I want to become. But I can't. Because I won't.

It's a joke. Not a very funny joke either. The past few years, that joke's been put to rest. Comicbooks, superhero comicbooks are not for nerds or dorks or geeks or the comicbook guy on The Simpsons. Not anymore. Comics aren't a joke anymore. You can make money off'em. You can look cool with'em. Somehow, I'm stuck in the past, without a Delorean in sight.

The thing is, heroism's greatest foe is not an alien despot or insane murderer. It's failure. It's when you shoot and miss, and stop. When you wallow in self-pity. When you curse the world. When you stop believing in yourself. When you start blaming everyone but yourself. When you don't man up and admit that you failed and try to start over again. When heroes lose, they go out and do the next thing. They do not quit, the shouldn't quit. Villains are born from quitters. Villains are born from those who do not take responsibility on their actions. Because it's them who hate the world. It's them who will do anything to get ahead. And it's so easy to become one. All we have to do is to justify the wrong actions and rationalize the wrong beliefs. It's that easy. It's too easy.

TRAFFIC DAY

Yesterday was Ash Wednesday. Also EDSA 1 Day. A third name we can give to yesterday is "TRAFFIC DAY." For it was very, very, very congested on the roads. Under normal circumstances, that would be terrible. But I didn't see it that way. Why? Because the people with me in the ride did not make it a terrible day. Thank you. None of you are going to read this. But thank you.

He's Just Not That Into You

"You are my exception."


Very, very, VERY good.

When in doubt...

Listen to the Backstreet Boys.

Something That I Already Know

Here we are, seven days
And seven nights of empty tries
It's ritual, habitual
But it's never gonna work this time

We're to the point of no return
And along the way the only thing we've learned
Is how to hurt each other

I'm looking back and wondering why
It took so long to realize
That nothing's changed, it never will
All these years of standing still
And still we stay in all this pain
And nothing's gonna make it go away

Chorus:
I don't wanna wait another minute
Put me out of my misery
I can read your mind baby you're not in it
And we're not what we used to be
No you wouldn't have to lie to me
If you would only let me go
And I don't wanna wait another minute to hear
Something that I already know
I know, I know, I know
Something that I already know
I know, I know, I know

So save your voice
Don't waste your breath
Can't you see we're at the end
And this goodbye is permanent
So wish me well and try to forget

And all the fights
And all the ways
We almost made it
But we never did
And it's finally come to this

(Repeat Chorus)

We can not hide what we've become
So sick and tired of being numb
It's done, it's done
It's done

[Chorus II:]
I don't wanna wait another minute
Put me out of my misery
I can read your mind baby you're not in it
And we're not what we used to be
No, you wouldn't have to lie to me
If you would only let me go
And I don't wanna wait another minute to hear
Something that I already know
I know, I know, I know
Something that I already know
I know, I know, I know
Something that I already know
I know, I know, I know
I know, 'cause I know

Retraction

Oh screw that. Yesterday? Yeah, yesterday was a good day. Haha. When things like that happen and it doesn't lead to any drama? When you get to do something you actually wanted to do? When you get to listen to THREE SMALL WORDS from the Josie and the Pussycats movie? When you get to watch The Office again? When you get to eat perfectly grilled Salmon? When your favorite sports team, despite not having their two leading scorers still gets a W?

And, yes, the best thing that happened yesterday which I won't get into?

Yep, definitely a good day.

Strength in Numbers

Now that Danny is out for the next few weeks both my teams, the Pacers and my Fantasy team, are going to be hard-pressed to make the playoffs. SO DAMN IT.

Indiana's going to have a tough time trying to get back into the playoffs after 2 years of sitting out. But if Marquis can produce 18-22 points, TJ continues to do his thing AND be the focal point on offense and if Brandon Rush and Stephen Graham step up, they can still make it.

My Fantasy team on the other hand...yikes. Danny was giving me points, 3's, blocks and the occasional high rebounding or passing game. I already signed Marquis but I need to step up my add/drop game if I wanna stay in the hunt.

Also, I am going to have to step up my game. With you-know-what. Because I will not fail.

And, I have to be right, right? I have to be right that good things, that things that happen in movies, can happen in real life...because it would really suck if things like that couldn't happen in real life. I'd find no point in life anymore. Haha. I mean, if terrible things can happen, then amazing things have to be possible too right? I will believe. And I will find a way.

Also, CASEY CARLSON I LOVE YOU.

That is all.

LOST

"That's why it's called a leap of faith, Jack."

"Why hold on to something that makes you feel sad."

CASEY CARLSON I LOVE YOU

Please please please I hope you make it! You can do better than that and I believe in you!

(I am not crazy and/or psychotic haha I am just your number 1 fan from the Philippines. I BELIEVE IN CASEY CARLSON!)

GO CASEY CARLSON!

Honors Class

God I miss 4A.

Thinking about it now, that's where I truly belonged. In that classroom. With them.

I don't get that sense of security and fellowship anywhere else.

ARE YOU SERIOUS??

I FORGOT ABOUT POST NO. 200!!!!!


That kinda sucks.

Oh well, moving on.

Today was the day I did something that I will not speak of directly for fear of ridicule and on the off chance that the person whom I did said thing to reads this blog and discovers the behind-the-scenes of the thing I did. Also, I have terrible grammar apparently.

You know, I have to become a better person. In everything. I am failing at so many things. Literally and metaphorically. I am failing. I must not fail! I am not a failure. I am many things but not one of those things is a failure. I gotta step it up.

Danny Granger, my fourth favorite player ever (Ahead of him: Reggie Miller, LeBron James and Shane Battier. Behind him: (not in order) JJ Redick, Austin Croshere (the 2000 version), Rich Alvarez, LA Tenorio, Larry Fonacier, Deron Williams, Mark Jackson, Jalen Rose, Jermaine O'Neal (BEFORE he turned into the Drain)...wait, what was I gonna say about Danny again? Oh yeah. Danny's an all-star! He's a bonafide all-star this year and I hope this is the first of many all-star game selections to come. Congratulations Danny Granger!

Casey Carlson, I love you. I totally do. You are the prettiest AI contestant ever. I HOPE YOU WIN. PLEASE VISIT THE PHILIPPINES IF YOU DO AND LOOK FOR ME, YOUR NUMBER 1 FAN. I love you.

(Me = Not crazy, not a stalker, not terrible-looking. Give me a chance.)

Lost + Battlestar Galactica + Spectacular Spider-Man + Supernatural + The Office + Entourage + Friday Night Lights = One of the finest seasons of television ever.

The preview of Guardians of the Galaxy #10 is up on CBR. I am loving those first few panels.

Saw the second Transformers trailer. I CANNOT WAIT FOR THIS MOVIE. Please please please please let it be the greatest thing ever. "Constructicons, merge for the kiiillll!"

Gab Doller, miss ka namin pare.

Toodles.

Three Small Words

"And those 3 small words were way too late, 'coz you can't see that I'm the one."

HAHA!

199

This is post no. 199.

That means the next joint I drop will be no. 200.

And that's definitely a yay. But we gotta stop for a sec and remember post no. 100. Because I forgot all about so many months ago. I even incorrectly counted. So there, I'm dumb. But let's forget about that for a sec and talk about the blog.

This blog, it's important to me. Like all bloggers and their blogs, this is where I can be me and you can see me being me. This is my outlet, my voice. And for a while, I didn't believe that that was important. And it cost me. So I gotta say thank you. To myself. Haha, that must sound so conceited. But it's the truth. I gotta give myself props for taking back something I lost.

Thanks JFav.

The Greatest Thing on TV Today

Bar none. Hands down. G.O.A.T.

Frak it.

For the love of the almighty, episodes 13, "The Oath," and 14, "Blood on the Scales," of Battlestar Galactica have to be required viewing. For everybody. But no, it just can't be these two episodes. Yes, they are AMAZING, but to fully get it, you're going to have to be a fan. I kid you not, these episodes are intense. WOW.

"I'M COMING FOR ALL OF YOU!"

"Never pulled the pin."

"I'm gonna take back my ship."

Frak me, Battlestar Galactica.

Heart

What does it take to destroy a heart?

Hearts, they break all the time; they aren't particularly sturdy to begin with. Words can break a heart. Written or spoken, it don't matter, they'll cripple the beating thing just the same. Sometimes even, you don't need words. Silence or inaction can do the trick, just as effectively. People can do harsh things. And they all begin and end with or without the right words.

That's what it takes to break a heart. But to destroy it? Can a heart ever be destroyed? Can a heart ever be beaten down, pummeled, pounded, tenderized, obliterated, annihilated, crushed and defeated to the point of no return?

A person whose heart betrays him can survive. He'll pick up the pieces. He'll cradle them. He'll be a mess for a while but in the end, he'll fix it. But if that heart keeps on breaking, how can you save it? One day, the power of love, much to Huey Lewis' dismay, might just fail. It hurts to have it break. If it happens over and over...I guess that's why there's still violence and pain in the world. Without a heart, a person is lost and afraid and terrified and unkind.

Suddenly, Ma-ti doesn't have such a lame power after all.

Grant Morrison said something cool!

"Fictional idols don't fall and if they do, they just get up again. A superhero is a guy who just will not let you down. He or she's our best, most aspirational image of ourselves as people. Our future potential in cartoon form."

That's cool Mr. Morrison, very cool.

Jeri, Being Awesome

Jeri, Being Awesome. I must find a way to incorporate that into my current lexicon. Haha.

If only Jameer Nelson's shoulder could get awesome soon. DAMN IT.

Jeri, Being Awesome, typed his latest blog entry.

Jeri, Being Awesome, strolled down the corridor.

I am just rambling on right now. You can't tell, there are so few lines, but yes, I am rambling. Haha.

I think I need a break. Later. Haha.

Baller

I Ryan Buenafed/LeBron James-ed/Reggie Miller-ed my brother. Wahahahaha!

If I can utilize my size more...yeah, I think that's a good idea.